I read this wonderful quote on Mrs. MK's Musings tonight. (Which is one of my favorite blogs. I love her beautiful photography)
Wait on the Lord, wait quietly, wait trustingly. He holds every minute of every hour of every day of every week of every month of every year in His hands. Thank Him in advance for what the future holds, for He is already there. -Elisabeth Elliot
It was just what I needed tonight. Last night as I was getting ready for bed, I noticed that I was spotting a little bit. I was so convinced that it meant the end of my pregnancy. My first instinct was to call my husband at work, but I felt like God was calling me to come to Him this time. I sobbed and prayed.
I didn't sleep much last night. This was what got me through the night:
I lift up my eyes to the hills—
where does my help come from? My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth. He will not let your foot slip—
he who watches over you will not slumber; indeed, he who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep. The LORD watches over you—
the LORD is your shade at your right hand; the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon by night. The LORD will keep you from all harm—
he will watch over your life; the LORD will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore.
Today, the spotting has stopped and I can't even write how relieved I am. I've learned that spotting is a really common thing for people who are using Lovenox injections during pregnancy. I am praying that it is nothing.
It may sound bizarre, but I am grateful for this scare. It shook me up and showed me how quietly and easily I had drifted from the Lord lately. I've been so distracted with this pregnancy, my excitement and fears, and the holidays. Last night I was broken and had to run to Him. This pregnancy more than ever, I am aware of how helpless I am and how much I need Him. It is all out of my control.
Tonight, I have been going through my Christmas pictures. These two melt my heart. I love my girls. :