Wednesday, January 2, 2008

A Scare and Some Christmas Pics of My Blessings

I read this wonderful quote on Mrs. MK's Musings tonight. (Which is one of my favorite blogs. I love her beautiful photography)

Wait on the Lord, wait quietly, wait trustingly. He holds every minute of every hour of every day of every week of every month of every year in His hands. Thank Him in advance for what the future holds, for He is already there. -Elisabeth Elliot

It was just what I needed tonight. Last night as I was getting ready for bed, I noticed that I was spotting a little bit. I was so convinced that it meant the end of my pregnancy. My first instinct was to call my husband at work, but I felt like God was calling me to come to Him this time. I sobbed and prayed.

I didn't sleep much last night. This was what got me through the night:

I lift up my eyes to the hills—
where does my help come from? My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth. He will not let your foot slip—
he who watches over you will not slumber; indeed, he who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep. The LORD watches over you—
the LORD is your shade at your right hand; the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon by night. The LORD will keep you from all harm—
he will watch over your life; the LORD will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore.
-Psalm 121

Today, the spotting has stopped and I can't even write how relieved I am. I've learned that spotting is a really common thing for people who are using Lovenox injections during pregnancy. I am praying that it is nothing.

It may sound bizarre, but I am grateful for this scare. It shook me up and showed me how quietly and easily I had drifted from the Lord lately. I've been so distracted with this pregnancy, my excitement and fears, and the holidays. Last night I was broken and had to run to Him. This pregnancy more than ever, I am aware of how helpless I am and how much I need Him. It is all out of my control.

Tonight, I have been going through my Christmas pictures. These two melt my heart. I love my girls. :

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Crystal said...

Becky, I will pray for you as far as the spotting!! You are an amazing mom and Christian from what I can see : ) You amaze me in how you can give it all to God!! My prayers are for you all the way from snow covered Michigan. Blessings- Crystal
We are adopting again and I would love to send you his picture so you could pray, can you email me? Thanks!!

Lisa said...

Oh Becky! I am so thankful that the scare brought you running back into the arms of Him who loves you so much and always waits patiently and without condemnation for you. There is no better place to be! Praying for God to remove the understandable fears so that you can enjoy every moment of this pregnacy unhindered!
Always praying,

Lisa said...

And forgot to say what beautiful girls you have there!!
You are blessed indeed!
:) Lisa

Mrs. MK said...

I am so thankful for the chance that God gave you to run straight to HIM! And I do thank Him that the spotting has stopped---and pray continually for the health of your little one, and for your strength as the fatigue can really take a toll!


Anonymous said...

Whew! This is going to be a long 9 months. I love you, Mom

Anonymous said...

Praying for you dear friend!

Karissa and Amy look so grown up and sweet in those pictures it brings tears to my eyes!


The Williams Family said...

I am glad you and the baby are ok. What a scary time. I remember all during this last pregnancy of mine and would be so scared any time I had spotting. Heavenly Father truly watches out for us and is in control.

The pics of th girls are so precious.

Lelia Chealey said...

Hi Becky!
I will be praying for you. It always amazes me what God will use to get our attention. I'm so glad you "got it". Just think what you would've missed out on. You may have lost sleep, but sounds like you gained a renewed love for your Saviour. Awesome!!
You have so much going on, just e-mail me when you're ready the free SPA treatments you won sent your way. I'll be placing another order this Saturday, so let me know if you want to get something by then.
Take care of you & continue to seek the face of our King. I loved the line in Facing the Giants when he asked his wife..."If God doesn't give us a baby, will you still love HIM?"
Many Blessings~